Just back from the screening of Blood Diamond at Leicester Square. Not bad at all and fully deserved the spontaneous applause it got at the end. Walking out to the drunken mayhem made it all surreal, hard to imagine there's another world out there. The 'problems' we have all suddenly seemed very infantile.

Almost a week into the clean phase now. Ateast on two occasions after my last post I had the stuff almost at my fingertips. All I had to do was reach out and it would have been mine. I don't have a clue what prevented me from going for it. Mentally feel like crap most of the time, and im just grinning and bearing it. I just don't want to go back to the euphoria nights again. The body must be missing all the adrenalin rush and probably why Im indulging in extremely flirtatious behaviour with the opposite sex. Let's see how the weekend goes...